You are strolling down a street in a day dream when your heart skips a beat and you have to take a second glance. You wonder why that face you have seen seems so familar.
You cast your mind back and then it all falls into place. You recognise that face for a reason, it is your old friend/flame/fuck buddy.
You can play it two ways, you can either keep walking in the hope they haven’t spotted you or think you have spotted them or you could just bite the bullet and approach them.
Either way the likelihood is that you left this person in the past for a reason, you’ve either grown up or you’ve moved on and you didn’t look back, so now it comes to the crunch what are you going to do? Try and salvage the relationship or turn your back on it for good?
It’s similar to Rose dropping Jack into the murky waters of the ocean, she promised never to let go but then loosened her grip and watched him sink. I realise this had been metaphorically speaking and since he was already dead there wasn’t much he could do to protest… anyway the point I was trying to make is relationships can sometimes follow the same path. We all promise each other we’ll be there to the bitter end but when things do get bitter we’d rather just end it. We make a bold claim like Rose and then on the sly let them go. Tragic but that’s life my friends.
So today I was sat at the bus stop trying to find a decent song I haven’t overplayed on my i pod when someone stands uncomfortably close to me. I take one quick look up and then throw my head down again praying she hadn’t seen me. My old high school friend was stood right before me, almost teetering over me to read the bus timetable. From the way she twitched she had seen me and from the way I shifted she must of known I saw her but we had this mutual respect not to break the awkard slience. After I finished the pantomime of flicking through my playlist and after she finished her act of peering at the timetable she walked away to the back of the queue.
Maybe I shouldn’t of let the chance slip away, maybe I should of jumped to the opportunity bellowing in her face: “Oh my God! It’s been so long! How are you?” But I found this would not only scare the living daylights out of her but it’d require a massive amount of energy only to end in small talk.
So ladies don’t feel the guilt if you walk on by, some things were never meant to be. Appreciate the friends you have now, you never know you may be walking past them in the future.
Tags: avoiding, friendships, past
